I took 3-4 days off the program to rest-up and clear a minor cold over the weekend (probably stress-related). Some challenges with Rebekah too, who is extremely stressed for several reasons and we were very disconnected and it was painful. Better now. Starting up my program again today with the first polyphasic shift, following a major workout yesterday that is leaving me feeling very good in my body.
Last week was a wild, wild week, extremely trippy. It’s time to settle in now and let "the rubber hit the road" and really confirm that it’s possible to have 12 hours a day of focused intellectual work. I am attempting this from today although I expect it will take a little time as I need to get off the caffeine (tea). I am excited about this for sure (getting off the caffeine) but I do expect to be a bit "gaga" over the next 4-5 days and will need to sleep a bit more than average. I need to work on my diet also.
I got quite discouraged yesterday about my job prospects – I currently have 3 leads but they are moving VERY slowly and the economy appears to be in shambles – but the truth is that I have barely begun to actively look for work. Most of the time since I was laid-off (5 weeks ago) I have spent doing personal research and lifestyle experiments, writing and networking. I have it in my mind to either have found work inside two weeks (Feb. 8th) or else to have some other substantial movement in this area. Despite all the challenges of my situation, I feel quite deeply inspired and connected to Spirit with what I am doing. Every night before I go to sleep I "call for" a transformative dream or psychic encounter in my sleep, but I am still waiting. I wrote to Rebekah this morning that I do feel at-core that this is the epic journey of our lives, and that millions of people would kill to have a life as rich and as full of meaning, opportunities and freedom as we have now. The first few weeks of this journey have been a bit obsessive and "external" but I feel that I am now shifting to a deeper, more spirit-connected place of transformation, and it feels very good.
I am starting to get out a lot more as well – I have groups every night this week, including two at Trellis. The natural human tendency when things get rough is to isolate which I think is the worst possible response.
