4am
Overslept core sleep by 2 hours (total 5 hours) but I feel fabulous, as I am feeling more and more often at the first shift. I am still maintaining my diet, exercise, and coffee sobriety, and this is beginning to kick-in big time.
With regards to yesterday, I think it’s very important to just follow the program and not worry too much about outcome. While the situation may be critical, perhaps even desperate, no one can predict outcome, especially so early in the process. Not to over-dramatize, but this experiment is to some degree an epic journey, an experiment that has the potential to completely revolutionize how I am in the world and all aspects of my life, my relationships, my ability to express my gifts and my passion, and my level of contribution to society. Even if I do end up at a day job (which appears most likely at this stage) it will be a totally different experience from my first contract day-job last year, that lasted 6 months.
I am also realizing that blogging about this experience is a key part of it, and it’s important to set aside time for it, even though it appears a bit obsessive at times. In my first 3 posts post to this blog I had laid out my motivations and my intentions, quite persuasively I think. I had concluded that series with the statement:
As I get older (and hopefully wiser), there is one fundamental belief that wells up inside me with the same power as “we hold these truths to be self-evident”: that until I can fully own the “courage of my convictions” and start to pursue my passions and dreams with the entire force of my being and with all the intelligence, resources and determination that I have been endowed with by my creator – until that truly happens I am fucked. I would rather be dead than to live an "ordinary" life or attempt to medicate myself into being satisfied with mediocrity (even if such a thing were possible, which it appears not to be). The package I come in has elements of pathology and elements of genius. Which one will win out only the future will tell, but if I don’t go full-out here the end-result is guaranteed.
All this is still perfectly true. My dream is still to work at home and make no less than $8000 with no more than 40 hours work, ideally on an Uberman schedule (which would leave me 3 daytime shifts and 6 weekends shifts for personal development, training and networking) and I am not giving up on that yet. Even if it takes me 6 months to get there that is what I want. This kind of clarity of intention and confidence is a part of this major shift in consciousness that I am referring to in the previous paragraph.
Today I am making one (minor) change to the schedule. I am doing my workout after the first shift (6-8am) in order to adapt as soon as possible to the kind of Everyman schedule that I would need to follow if I got a day-job.
I am also getting excited about studying Stompernet SEO. This article by a Matthew Bredel (successful internet marketer within 6 months) pretty well says it all. This is what I want. My hunch is that I will use this information to develop the Lifestyle Design Coaching site, the Conscious Couples Coaching and Conscious Singles Coaching sites (joint businesses with that Rebekah), and various downloadable materials around that. Or perhaps something along the lines of Steve Pavlina and to have some of my autobiographical writing published. I actually think I have made a very good start to all this with the Lifestyle Design and the Polyphasic Sleep sites.
